Sinking Deeper
By Rose

Posted with permission from Rose

As most sissies can attest, the process of feminizing yourself and dressing up is highly addictive. Once you try on panties for the first time, your fate is sealed, the urges only build from there. I am sure many of you have read the epic ‘stages of sissification’ post on Newfapchan /girly/ from several years ago. If you haven’t seen it, definitely look it up, because I bet a lot of you sexy sissies will find it relatable.

For myself, it definitely holds true. I first started dressing when I was about 13 out of curiosity. I had seen girl’s thongs peek above their pants in school and found it very intriguing. So much so that I snuck into my sister’s room and ‘borrowed’ a thong bodysuit out of her dresser. I ran back into my room and immediately tried it on. The feeling was intoxicating. That thin piece of fabric rubbing against my ass combined with the soft fabric rubbing against my sissy clit led to instant arousal. I wasn’t really sure what to do at that point, so I didn’t think too much about it and followed my instincts.

I laid face down on my bed and started humping a pillow, it just felt so good that I couldn’t stop, until I felt something. Did I just have an orgasm? I checked for wetness and sure enough, I thought back to health class and realized I must have cum. If you weren’t following, yes. My first ever orgasm was from humping a pillow while dressed in girl’s clothes.

Fast forward to 21 years old, and here I am, dressed in black and white striped stockings, a black bodycon mini-dress, a black garter belt, black bra and of course, a black thong. I had just put on my wig and was staring at myself in the bathroom mirror of my first black man’s apartment. He had worked hard to get me to come over and the realization was sinking in that I was about to have my first black cock. My heart was pounding out of my chest, but I looked and felt so sexy and knew there was no turning back now. My fate was sealed, I had to go out there and meet him.

I stepped out of the bathroom and he was playing some sexy music. I was so nervous (basically shaking) and had no idea what to do, but luckily for me he expertly took the lead. He was running his hands all over my ass and body, I was feeling his strong grip and just gave in to his direction. He started spanking and biting my ass. It all felt so good that I just let my mind go blank, again giving into my instincts.

I managed to find myself on my knees face to face with his big black cock. I deeply inhaled his scent, and just felt my ingrained sissy instincts take over. I knew exactly what to do. I took his cock in my hands and slid the head into my mouth, licking and sucking, feeling him get harder and harder, slowly dripping precum into my mouth. Later on he told me that it was the best blowjob he ever had and if I had continued, he would have cum almost immediately.

While I was sucking for that short time, a realization hit me. This cock was going to fuck me. I couldn’t contain my arousal and took my mouth off his cock and stood up. Somehow he sensed exactly what I wanted and he led me into his bedroom. I got on all fours, spread my legs, and presented my round ass for his pleasure like a good girl. Like I was made for taking cock, he slid right in with little effort and began fucking me slowly and deeply. At one point, he started stroking my sissy clit and I got very hard (this was before I got into chastity). He was going to make me cum and I wouldn’t be able to stop it. While the slow and sensual fucking continued, he whispered to me, “tell me you’re a sissy for my big black cock”. Without thinking I repeated, “I’m a sissy for your big black cock.” That was the moment I became a bbc sissy.

Saying that phrase out loud, admitting to myself what I am, made me instantly cum. It was one of my most powerful orgasms ever, shooting my weak sissy cum all over his white sheets. It was then that I got really nervous and the sissy regret totally washed over me. I immediately changed and rushed to the exit, but I gave him just enough time to give me one last humiliating blow in the form of a slap on my ass as I ran out the door.

It didn’t hit me immediately, but after becoming a white sissy that exclusively sleeps with black men, I realize that was the moment I was blacked. Over the years I’ve realized everything they say it totally true. It feels so good to submit. Sink deeper. Once you go black, there’s no going back.

Good girl.